Who's your Daddy?

So yesterday I was thinking to myself...does my baby know that I'm his Momma?

As I was making dinner and we were all in the kitchen.  I had asked my husband..."Do you think he knows I'm his Momma?" I was surprised and hurt at his response.  He said something like "well he either thinks its you or your mom".  Caught off guard I said "Thanks for that comment".  I was so hurt but try not to let it get to me since we were about ready to have dinner.  Being so upset...I went for a low blow...and said to my baby..."Then you must think your grandpa (my dad) is your daddy!" After that we dropped our conversation.

The thing is...I have no choice but to leave the baby with someone else.  I don't have the money to be an at home mom taking care of my baby.  If I could, I would! I would LOVE to stay home and watch him grow up...but the truth is we can't afford it!

When I talk to my mom at the end of the day about the baby...its bitter sweet.  She tells me about his day...and I start to think to myself...I missed all of that.  Don't get me wrong, I love to hear about his day and what he did.  The thing is that I also have to think that I wasn't there and I won't see it again.  I'm not there to feed him breakfast...put him down for a nap...take him to the park during the day!

I'M AT WORK!

I make really good money for what I do.  I'm able to take my son into Babies R US and drop a couple of hundreds on anything that he needs! I don't want to leave my baby but its something that I have to do.  In all, I don't get much time with him during the week cause of my work.  My day starts at 4:45 a.m. and ends when I get home at 4:30 or 5:00 p.m.  From that time...its dinner time...clean up time...or running errands.  After dinner or errands, its about 6:30 p.m. or so.  My son goes to sleep around 7:30 p.m.  So really...I only get about an hour maybe two hours if I'm lucky to spend with him.

I know he didn't mean anything bad...well at least I hope he didn't...but I just hope he realized how much it did hurt... 

The Powers you get from being a Mom

So being a mom has changed me...for the best I would say...well at least I hope.  There are some things that you just become a pro at instantly by becoming a mom.  So here's my list

• Being able to change a diaper under a minute! Even the ugly poopy ones!
• Being able to make a bottle with a child in one hand and the bottle in the other.
• Knowing the difference in cries.  Hunger, Sleepy, Scared, Sad/Hurt
• Being able to complete a day with very little or no sleep.
• Expert Singer/Hummer
• Being able to remember every childhood song you ever learned.
• Being able to pack a diaper bag ready for any weather.
• Being able to follow the schedule and toss it out the window at any given time.
• Coupons for Formula, Diapers and anything baby related are top on the list and are now worth saving.
• Baby's nap time is Momma's Time! =)

That's a short list...and I'm sure as the baby grows up...so will the list!

Growing and Growing and Growing...

I guess some could say that my baby is on the Large side...the very large side!  He is only 5 months old and is already wearing a size 12 months.  Yes that's right...12 months!  He is about 29 inches long and about 21 pounds.

I had got tons of clothes for the baby during the babyshowers that I had.  Some were newborn size...that lasted the baby about 2 weeks max.  The next size was 0-3 months...did last about a month I would say...then 3-6 months...about another month.  For some reason he 'skipped' 6/9 months and went to 12 months in no time!  The sad thing is that because I had got so many clothing items...some of the things that no longer fit him still had tags on it!  I have clothes put away that are still brand new.  My baby just kept growing.

I do have some clothes that are 9 months but because they snap at the bottom, they don't always fit.  The clothes say 26 to 28.5 inches...Jesse is 29 inches.  That .5 of an inch does make a BIG difference.  With the buttons that snap right under the diaper....things get a little snugged.

So...big tip for people that are going to babyshowers...buy big clothes! Trust me the parents will love you for it!  The small clothes are nice but won't last long!  Only very few people gave me clothes past 9 months.  I remember opening a gift with clothes that were 12 months and thought...okay this person is crazy! OMG was I so wrong.  That's all my baby is wearing right now!

So clothes are not a big problem.  My thing is that people, including me, forget how small my baby is.  I mean they forget how young he is!  He is only 5 months....yeah from the outside he might look like he's an 8 month old baby...but he's not!  I always get the surprised look from people when I tell them how old my baby is.  Yeah he's big in size but he's still my baby boy!