Who's your Daddy?

So yesterday I was thinking to myself...does my baby know that I'm his Momma?

As I was making dinner and we were all in the kitchen.  I had asked my husband..."Do you think he knows I'm his Momma?" I was surprised and hurt at his response.  He said something like "well he either thinks its you or your mom".  Caught off guard I said "Thanks for that comment".  I was so hurt but try not to let it get to me since we were about ready to have dinner.  Being so upset...I went for a low blow...and said to my baby..."Then you must think your grandpa (my dad) is your daddy!" After that we dropped our conversation.

The thing is...I have no choice but to leave the baby with someone else.  I don't have the money to be an at home mom taking care of my baby.  If I could, I would! I would LOVE to stay home and watch him grow up...but the truth is we can't afford it!

When I talk to my mom at the end of the day about the baby...its bitter sweet.  She tells me about his day...and I start to think to myself...I missed all of that.  Don't get me wrong, I love to hear about his day and what he did.  The thing is that I also have to think that I wasn't there and I won't see it again.  I'm not there to feed him breakfast...put him down for a nap...take him to the park during the day!

I'M AT WORK!

I make really good money for what I do.  I'm able to take my son into Babies R US and drop a couple of hundreds on anything that he needs! I don't want to leave my baby but its something that I have to do.  In all, I don't get much time with him during the week cause of my work.  My day starts at 4:45 a.m. and ends when I get home at 4:30 or 5:00 p.m.  From that time...its dinner time...clean up time...or running errands.  After dinner or errands, its about 6:30 p.m. or so.  My son goes to sleep around 7:30 p.m.  So really...I only get about an hour maybe two hours if I'm lucky to spend with him.

I know he didn't mean anything bad...well at least I hope he didn't...but I just hope he realized how much it did hurt... 

On this Day...

So back in April of 2003, Oscar and I became boyfriend and girlfriend.  We have been together for a total of 8 years already and still going strong.  I try not to remind him that its our Anniversary but I always find a way. 

I didn't say anything until I got home after work.  I told him...and of course he said that he remembered but didn't want to say anything.  The thing is...I know he didn't remember! He can say all he wants but I know he didn't.

He tries to tell me that there is only one date that he keeps in his heart...and that's the day that we got married. I know its just an excuse so if he doesn't remember he can say that only our wedding anniversary counts but... 

This is the way I think of it...If we didn't have April 6, 2003...then we wouldn't have August 30, 2008... 

~A Dodger Family~

On Saturday (04/02/11), the Pierce Family attended our first Dodger game as a family.  This was the baby's first time at a Dodger Game well outside of the belly anyways. Jesse is a very good baby...and I'm not just saying this cause he's my son! He will not cry unless he needs something.  He did not cry at all at the game.  The only thing is that he did want to nap but with the cheers of the crowd, he wasn't able to.

Although Daddy did his best to try and explain the game to Jesse...he was just more interested in looking at everyone and everything!  Its sad to say but the Dodgers lost the game and before it was over, we left!  Our goal that day was to buy Jesse a jacket for the next game that we were to attend. They didn't have any and it seemed that they were clueless about when or if they would get any this season. Not to worry Babies R US has them in stock!  Overall, great day to be at a baseball game!